Unconventional Path?

Part of the difficulty of deciding what to do with the rest of my life has to do with dreams. Big dreams in fact. The desire to wake up in the morning and have a view with my coffee, to own land that can be wild as it wishes to be. A place to give some "golden years" to animals.

Not really a big place for myself, just enough room for the kiddo to be able to visit me and some elbow room when I shower.

But there has always been some problems with this, one is location. If it is truly far from everything than it would be affordable, possibly even right now.

In my dream though this place, let's call it Farm for lack of a better word, should have an airport not too far away and perhaps some Theater or Opera within reasonable distance. I want to be somewhat near water, preferably an ocean.

I need internet for my job and to stay in touch with my family.

Aside from that I do not want to become a Hermit. I do like being connected to people.

Even though I value my alone time, I do require some social connectedness, some girls nights in with wine, or an afternoon coffee and cake. Discussions about the world, the people in our lives and perhaps the newest podcast I heard.

And let's face it my handyman skills are pretty basic, so taken care of buildings for larger animals, fixing things all on my own is certainly possible, but feels a bit scary.

Not having a partner in my life to dream this dream with and to have courage with me, causes me to feel sadness. At times I get angry at myself for not having saved more or progressed in my career faster. But the truth is, I hustled well for my kiddo and me and having her needs prioritized just feels like it was the right thing to do.

So where does that lead to. The thought that waiting for Mr. Right is not really what I want, I find dating so hard and unrewarding. I have lots of quiet evenings and am not mad that the only company is my dog.

But I do wonder how it feels to age alone, I see my mom who is 70 now and still fit worry about it too. Sometimes a helping hand or comforting ear would be great, and one does not always want to bother the friends that have their life to live too.

But what if co-living gives an opportunity to go all out, without doing it alone. What if it is possible to find like minded people to share land with, possibly a big house, or multiple tiny homes and some communal area.

Women to share the work and the skills with, to spend time with and to live this dream without the worry of doing it alone?

When I think about it pictures of hippies come up, but that does not really appeal to me.

I am wondering though if there are more women out there, without a life partner, who are wondering the same as me?

Who like to be part of society with all it's beauty, who love a trip to the department store, but who also dream of a vegetable garden, some chickens and a walk through the forest.

Are there others like me? Or better similar to me where we could build something?

Perhaps it is worth searching for that.....